STARCROSSED

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hi there.. it’s been a long time, right?

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ahaha.. i actually have so much to say, but i don’t know… maybe it’s because this blog is not that relevant to me as of late.. ’starcrossed’ don’t apply anymore, if you know what i mean (as azni fervently pointed it out to me aha).. but as i’m writing this, i’m beginning to realize just how much i’m missing this.. this space, this same old whine about the same old thing.. i missed writing. but as i said, i might have to change the name, or layout or something. only then my ‘appetite’ would come back, i guess. ahaha… somehow when i look back at those things i wrote, it all seemed so old.. it all seemed light years away from where i’m standing now.. but it’s true.. all of them were my true feelings, the way i see things.. which made me a little proud :).. that’s the thing i missed most i guess..

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changing the blog’s name would be appropriate i guess.. as i’m on a different plain now.. how life could turn you in an instant, right?.. it’s easy to compromise and overlook the simplest details, but when you finally understand the bigger picture, and oversee the unfolding events, you know you’re destined for better things. it really would fall into place, the pieces of this life. one queen is actually just a pawn in the making of your history. ‘i don’t deserve it’ is the biggest overstatement of the century, because actually you deserve something better. way better. and with faith intact, i’m sure you’ll find it one fine day, my friends. and you’ll just laugh and praised the works of God, when you look back from there. i know you think it’s a lot of crap, but believe me, i could tell you.

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but for me, in the end nothing is lost. because the wisdom, and knowledge you gained from the experience is priceless. well, if you think it’s just plain wasting time, energy and money, for things that actually don’t worth much at all, then it’s up to you.. it’s just the way i see things. ahaha…

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i’m working now, at phileo damansara. i’m in oil & gas, despite 4 years studying in construction. it’s basically the same thing, but of course technically it’s totally different (u get me?).. i guess i like it here, oil & gas is actually my latest passion (apart from the better pay aha). did you know that despite petronas owning all oil & gas reserves in malaysia, the largest producer in this country is exxonmobil? (despite only a handful of esso and mobil stations you see here in malaysia, exxonmobil is the BIGGEST company in the world - and not just in oil & gas category) . staggering fact, isn’t it. but still petronas raked up another record profit in the financial year just ended (but what you’d expect - with the high oil prices, takkan loss kot?).. err.. ok, i should stop right now, before i go on to scomi, halliburton, middle-east countries, etc.. i know you don’t wanna know about that ahaha.

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well, i should stop here. you know what, the things that have been happening in my life, seemed so real to me, because when i met this sage of a man i know in kuala kangsar not so long ago, he said to me.. "when you think you don’t deserve something, it’s actually the other way around. but you gotta have faith."

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so my friends (you know who you are).. i know it’s hard to believe.. but it’s true.

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have faith. you’ll get there.

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cheers

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in the confusion, and the aftermath,

you are my SIGNAL FIRE..

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